It’s two steps forward and thirteen back,
just enough hope to think…maybe,
but then reality strikes,
and drives me to the point I no longer want to be sober,
I want to numb everything,
but there’s no escape there either…
not really,
just for a few fleeting moments,
moments when pain succumbs to peace,
and almost happiness emanates from within…
almost…
then it’s over,
and before you say it,
Jesus isn’t the answer,
just another distraction,
another addiction that only other addicts can stomach,
words aren’t the answer either,
they’re close…
so fucking close…
but then they stop flowing,
and all that’s left is the ugliness they disguised,
the “inspiration” that birthed all the wondrous writings abandon you too,
and there it is…
right there…
abandonment…
what comes around,
goes…
not around,
just goes…
away,
away from me,
attachments lead to suffering…
letting go of everything I fear to lose,
they’re already gone…
but the pain remains,
just the same…
and I remain unchanged…after all
© 2018 Grabbety Covens
Sad…but touching, deep.
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Thank you
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Filled with much sorrow my friend. Very well written, but just so sad. I do hope you are well. 🙂
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I am well. Tired though. Working everyday leaves little time to read and write anymore
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So nice to see your little face pop up. Really miss you, my friend. Don’t overdo it, you need to take time for yourself once in a while. 🙂
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I know…20 days working without a day off leaves me exhausted
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OMG! Man, you have a right to be exhausted, you poor thing.
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I’m at work now…about to start
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Try and have a good evening, but please take off before you fall to the floor from exhaustion.
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Our day off is Saturday…20 days on, 1 off
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That just plain sucks. 😦
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Yes yes yes. This is just IT!
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Thank you for taking the time to read and comment on this…means a lot
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You are most welcome
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Great piece. I hope you are doing good.
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I am surviving. I hope you’re doing well. Thanks for checking on me. ☺️
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Much power to you. What are friends for. I am doing pretty good.
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I’m glad!
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